naz poetry spot
I still still today
Still cant say still cant tell Yet I still still today
Let my heart surrender to your gravity
My stomach feels these lowly depths of poverty
My sad eyes Sees only the saddest visions
My mind slowly lingers on thoughts of deepness depressing me
Feeling so tired but still so lonely sleepless
Touching my hand to my face
Feeling the fever on my dry dry skin
Placing fingers in my hair trying get a grip
Dying to imagine then you rip through me
Letting in the simple things, I miss most
Your taste still lingers in my mouth
Tried so hard not to feel tried to be strong
I still try so hard, biting down so hard, not to feel it
You still live in me alive on the tip of my tongue
Wish I could feel my tongue
My tongue lives, yet heavy and strained to a taste
The illusion of your taste this ghost of you,
my saliva plays host to
Wanting for the moments that lay vibrating your moisture
Your slippery depths yes that sweetness.
Still thirst, still hunger
Tracing my fingers over my lips
Feeling the fever on my dry dry skin
Trying to imagine us face to face then
I swallow to fill the hunger, but I feel no stronger
I fold to my knees
I pray and line my stomach with clay
May this hold for a day, the mold of you.
When I imagine you here now
My tongue forgets what language it speaks
My lips forgets what speech to say
Still letting my heart surrender to your gravity
Still my stomach feels these lowly depths of poverty
I still get sad eyes seeing only the saddest visions
ones of you walking away
Leaving me lonely
Still hope to see you someday If I could, what would I say?
I would make it today If I could facing you again
where it began
Could I see this mornings smile?
Just to let you know things I wished you knew
Touching your lips The taste still slowly lingers still today
I still know how to cry I still know how to laugh
I still know how to wet you
I still know how to love you still today
Still know of depressing deepness, just never knowing,
just how to let go.
Still Happiness I still know just how to fake it.
Still standing where you left me
So, if you see me smile today You still dont see me at all
Still today
-Naz
12-21-00
